You Said Yes

[mr_pikachu]

So, this pretty much continues from Just Words (http://www.pokemasters.net/forums/showthread.php?t=16059) and Question (http://www.pokemasters.net/forums/showthread.php?t=16137). Yeah.



You Said Yes

Weeks passed
I thought about you
About us
Couldn’t get you out of my mind
I told myself
I have to do something
We can’t keep standing still
I need to move forward
You need to move forward
We need to move forward
To give ourselves a chance
So
I thought about it
I thought about what we could do
And then
I saw you
I knew what I needed to do
But I was scared
I stumbled
Tripped over my words
And fell apart before your eyes
My heart pounded
Drums in my ears
All I could do
Was nervously mumble
What I felt like screaming
I tried to be cool
Ask you calmly
But I couldn’t even do that
And yet
You looked straight into my eyes
And you said yes

I smiled
And struggled to contain myself
How long has it been
Since I first dreamt of this moment
You’ve fascinated me
Enchanted me
For so long
Longer than you know
Longer than anyone knows
I ask myself
How I got so lucky
To meet someone like you
And for you
To actually like me too
There’s no one else like you
And now
You said yes
You said yes to me
When I asked
If you would go out with me
Maybe it shouldn’t be a big deal
Maybe I shouldn’t be so excited
About something so simple
But it’s important to me
You’re important to me
So even if it’s something simple
Something otherwise insignificant
The fact remains
That it’s with you
So even though
It’s something small
It’s special to me
Because
You said yes

I never knew
It could be so hard
To get ready
Maybe it’s just been too long
But I’m nervous
Making simple arrangements
Seems like such a trial
I don’t want to mess up
I should just relax
I like you
You like me
I know that it will go well
Even if it doesn’t
Because
I’ll be with you
But still
I want everything
To be perfect
I know
I’ll enjoy it
Just because
I’m with you
But I want you
To love it too
I want this day
To be unforgettable
It drives me crazy
Not a bad crazy
But still crazy
So I obsess
I try to plan every detail
I think about it
Running through every possibility
So that I won’t be surprised if it happens
What if you say this
What if you do that
I don’t want to screw up
Maybe it’s wrong of me
To try to plan ahead
But it’s hard
I can’t help myself
In trying to make this perfect
I want to make it perfect for you
After all
You’re the one
Who said yes

I kicked myself
Didn’t realize
There would be such a problem
Now I don’t know what to do
I had no idea
Your mom
Was so uncomfortable
With me
I had hoped
This would be a romantic date
Just you and me
Getting to know each other
On a whole new level
But now
We have a guest
A third wheel
She’s coming with us
On all the dates I’ve ever had
I’ve never gone
With my date’s mom
Will she be with us in town
Will she sit between us at the movie
Will she interrogate me at dinner
I’m not used
To not being trusted
It’s an unusual feeling
I can’t say I like it
It hurts
I needed to know
I’m glad I know the truth
But it still hurts
I expected
That it would be hard anyway
I was nervous in the first place
I thought
I might have to prove myself
But now
I don’t know what to expect
Maybe that’s for the best
Maybe it will keep me from obsessing
Over perfection
Because now
It’s unattainable
And yet
I just wanted to be with you
You and you alone
Because you said yes

I’m scared
Not a bad scared
Just a nervous scared
The third wheel
Is out of my mind
And yet
I’m still nervous
I thought
That now that things wouldn’t be perfect
I would stop thinking about it
I would let the chips fall where they may
But I just want it to go well
I just want you
To like me
It’s stupid
I’m sure I don’t have to worry
Because I know you
Because you know me
And yet
I want this
To be unforgettable
I want you
To feel how I feel
Every time I think of you
The chills
Running down my back
Butterflies in my stomach
Warmth in my face
Heart pounding
Lips quivering
And smiling
I want you
To feel the same way
To feel the same joy
Maybe I’m being silly
Maybe it’s preposterous
But that’s my hope
You fill me with light
So I want to cast away
Your shadows
I want to be there for you
To do that for you
Since you said yes

I wish it was tomorrow
No
I wish it was today
This waiting
It’s so painful
I want to be with you
I want to spend time with you
To walk with you
To sit with you
To watch with you
To eat with you
To laugh with you
To hold your hand
To look into your eyes
To
To
I don’t know
I just want to be by your side
I always enjoy my time with you
But I know
That this will be even more
I hate
That we have to wait so long
But I know it will be worth it
All the planning
All the work
All the anticipation
I’m scared
I’m nervous
I’m terrified
This is it
This is the big one
I’m scared of screwing up
I don’t want to do something wrong
I’m not scared of the day
To be honest
I can’t wait
To be with you
But I’m scared of myself
And yet
I’ll face that fear
The fear of failure
I’ll face it for you
To be by your side
Because I want to
I want to be there with you
For you
And for me
Because you brighten my life
You make me smile
You make me happy
How could I resist that
I don’t know what will happen
I’m not sure how this story ends
All I know
Is that it needs to be written
So I
Will put my heart into it
I will keep writing this tale
With you
I don’t need to have a reason for that
But I do
One reason
And one reason only
You said yes

[mistysakura]

I'm happy you're hopeful about where this is going. Obviously all problems aren't going to be tied up nicely, but I liked how you ended it looking forward. The metaphor with writing the story (as you write the poem) was my favourite bit. The repetition still made an impact although at times I thought it was overused (I don't know, I like subtlety a bit too much maybe). I thought this poem was a lot more simplistic than the others, and definitely more so than Just Words; I prefer a more lyrical and less straightforward prosaic style, but again that's just personal preference. It does reflect the much clearer outlook compared to the confusion in the previous poems though. Maybe it is just as simple as two people liking each other.

[eevee-shayna]

Kawaii ^_^
I'm glad you're continuing this series. They always come out as a surprise: like how this poem started off with the "she said yes" concept, and then led into the trifles of date planing and the mother. I like how the poem didn't stay on one topic and instead bleed into the proceedings. I also like how you ended with the title and brought the poem in a complete circle.

Thanks once again for sharing!

[Shadow Wolf]

Whoa Brian, you sure never stop surprising me, ehh?

I wonder if everyone reading this sensed some kind of happiness. I ask because when I read this, some kind of happiness flowed through my body, but maybe it's that I'm just crazy.

Anyway, congratulations, and I would like to give a bit of advice (even if I'm not good at this)

Keep writing things like things, since it always surprises a lot of people.
And about the meaning of this poem, then enjoy every single moment you spend with her, you won't regret it.

Well, talk to ya later.

Oh, do you give poetry tutorials? If you do, then I would like to be part of it. (just in case, I'm not joking)