Alcohol - A Discussion

[shazza]

I feel more comfortable discussing this with you guys rather than my real life friends.

Why do you guys that drink to intoxication like alcohol and the drunkeness? What do your hangovers entail? Do you ever have much regret? Why is society so accepting, and Saturday night's designed for it, of getting shitfaced?

And how about some of you here that remain sober? What are your reasons for this? Have you had a history with getting drunk before? What made you quit?

I'm quite sure we have had topics in Mt. Moon and stuff before about the joys of getting drunk, but I wish this to be a more serious discussion.

I cannot announce this to my real life friends, for if I do so would be cursing my own ambitions and putting a pressure on me. I have to do this for myself. I want to stop drinking. Three drinks max if I endevour to go out (3 is a magical number and anything over goes from a "little bit" to "too much", making one susceptible to having 15). But many people who decide "that's the last time I'm getting drunk" are just directing themselves to failure.

• I want a leaner body mass, and alcohol will not help that. I'm going back to building muscle and reducing body fat - and alcohol is only empty, fat calories.
• It's bad for my organs and shit. Obviously.
• My father is an alcoholic, and my mother was one in denial. I have an addictive personality.
• I want to develop genuine confidence when going out in the nightclubs, without needing 15 drinks to wear a mask and be someone I'm not. I want to learn to socialise with strangers and in that setting without alcohol.
• Costs a shit load.
• When I'm drunk I don't wobble or usually vomit these days; it's like I'm on auto pilot and going through a bipolar episode.
• And my hangovers usually don't include sickness or headaches; just very depressed and melancholy.

And I don't enjoy it as much. But I don't want to tell my friends my plans; I want to just have a couple and chillax without them noticing.

I can do this. I have a strong mind. I can do anything I set my mind to. I've lost 25kg. I've developed a far more emotional awareness (though not as of late).

..I hope I can, anyway.