What is happening? Is this happening to anyone else? Am I maturing? I'm finding it paradoxically to be less inhibited when sober as I'm able to control my thoughts more and not let them manifest in a negative fashion. When I go out, no matter how much I drink, I know it's all just this synthetic happiness. It's all fake.

And the hangover is so bad, mood wise. I haven't vomited from alcohol since August 28, 2010, but the mental hangover is of equal pain to a physical one.

And I am reminded of the proneness to alcoholism that runs in my family.

How's everyone else potential alcoholism treating them?