I'm loved that people want my plushie, lol. *Huggles them all and throws CCPs at them* =P

I'm answering both discussions, as always.

1. What do you guys normally do on the holidays?
I'm on vacation right now also, but I've already been on holidays for one week; this is the last week. Go figure.

I haven't really done anything but linger in my abode on the PC, conversely, slumber appears to be the more prevalent time-wise. I've wedged in a couple more hours or so than I used to habitually during the school tenure. I'm enjoying the time off as much as I can, though a few rough edges has made my time off quite vain. Including a death of a close friend who prevented me from a suicidal attempt, and charges pressed against me for… some motive I committed months back.

My other holidays are pretty much the same, with the similar jagged turns to make it more natural. Last holidays I believe I bummed around at home, but was in a real predicament when I was looking for a new school to attend before the term started. The holidays before that were troubles with my best friend, who's the person pressing charges on me now. The holidays before that… oh come on, you expect me to remember everything? Yeah, basically I just burn time on the computer and wait for whatever unexpected surprise strikes me.

I don't plan to make my holidays more enjoying than what it already is. After all, it's what I want to do, so I can't complain. I would like the time off to be somewhat more benefiting for me, like a real vacation someplace interstate. Some times I do think I need it and that it would be really good for me, but that usually isn't possible. I prefer to stay home though - I have a difficulty interacting or just being around in public, and apparently any place we go contains life forms, so I prefer if they didn't know I existed lol. I'm comfortable at home, and if I must waste my vacation time there to feel relaxed then so be it.

2. What is one of the most emotionally affecting things that you've found out?
Damn, looks like I'm going to have to talk about this now.

Well, probably the most emotional thing I've experienced is the loss (not death, just a loss) of probably the only friend I've made during my life, and something deplorable he had done. Note to the others, there weren't really many emotional events that had occurred during my time, so I'll just pick this one even though I don't feel any sort of distressed sentiment towards this erratic mess.

Basically, we've been friends for a few years. About one year after I started high school, he sort of felt sorry for me because I hung around by myself ever so occasionally, just doing nothing. I'll remain what I did secret since that's probably too uncomfortable and probably make the reader's think I'm just a sad freak. Anyway...

We became best friends one year later when his ex-best friend decided to exchange schools, so I was quite happy. I didn't really like that person after a while so I was ecstatic at the time that he did leave. Then this is where the trouble began. His friends despised me thinking I was no good, and they made such pitiful insults towards me all the time that were almost always ineffective unless they tried something physical. I was and still am tough to bring down emotionally; I guess I became acclimatized to those sorts of circumstances, thankfully.

I eventually opened up from my shell and made some new friends, though they weren't as good as he, they were still friends. He became awfully jealous of me since I had "more than him". I laughed about it for a while until he decided to ignore me and try to get me jealous of him and his 'gang'. I lost respect for him after that. The thing that brought me down is that he handed me a pocket knife when we were out of friendship mode and told me to go "cut my throat". I never did forget that moment, and I was so dismayed at the time, I did a lot of crazy things I forbid to name, including hacking his e-mail account, which is what I'm apparently having charges pressed on for. I went much further than that though, it's startling why that's the only reason why he's got the policed involved - he was never the brightest spark and everyone hated him for what he did. Whether he is truly pressing charges against me is something else to consider, or maybe it's just a threat. I don't really care, I'm ready for whatever.

Just finding out he hated me for that long was just enough to bring me down, and had felt depressed ever since after that, and screwed me up mentally. That was probably the start of my avoidance of the outside world, and I lost my trust in a lot of people. So yeah... that's probably it. *Walks off*