Oh, Jay, that was horrible!

I think the second thing that hurt me the most was to find out, at about the same time, that the guy I loved was gay and that my parents were about to get divorced.
The only thing that topped that was when my brother's problem started showing and, as one of its consequences, he told me I'd ruined his life. And everything that happened from then. It took me years to recover from all the parts of my life I lost due to his illness, and I still don't know what things will be like if and when he's ready to see me again.

Moving on to happier things, on holidays I usually go somewhere for a while, see my friends, write as much as I can, read as much as I can and, when possible, watch some movies and maybe a play. I really wish I were on holidays now. How do you get one in the spring?

Oh, and Megan, the Spring Bellossom Plushie is yours.