Let's see what ol' Grey has in his vault of written works conveniently placed on a floppy disk in my A: drive...
... ah, here we go...
forgotten lullabies
a catalog of thought
Searching for Nothing
wander aimlessly searching for emptiness not
something to fill the bitter nothingness void
lacking all but fear and compromise
my heart, it feels destroyed
but then you came along and all was worse
reminded of things i have not, can not
reminded only of my loss
but yet i fight on, every battle fought
and you keep coming and i shy away
looking for answers and for reason
for my nothing but afraid
each day passing a dying season
all so happy, yet so sad
like a manic, ney can i decide
fear not, i won’t not live-
-live without leaving you lied (to)
wander aimlessly searching for glory
that only He and you could fill
open eyes, pure heart
that cannot stand still
Confession
like a dream, you try to unlock
you keep trying, yet you can’t
persistent, you are--but not without hope
God shines in you, the seeds you plant
closed eyes, shallow flesh, my sorries
you look to him, to many fear
open this heart of mine, for it is buried
you look to the outside and not the in
you find happiness in sin, but not just you
everybody but One, do not fret
just apologize, that is all that you can do
like a dream you want but cannot free
like a young scared child without faith
trying too hard, and yet not hard enough
but just try, you may, to keep safe
The Gift of Forever
following nothing; i wander further
losing sight of everything with closed eyes
working for sorrows that pass me by
i cannot see through all the painful lies
falling discouraged day after day, it keeps me down
exponentially--each day gets a little less good
i see nothing but sorrow, ‘tis all my fault
why can’t nothing work out the way it should?
knowing that the end is never there
i was only promised by Him, the gift of forever
time never stops for those who need
like a personal vendetta i must endeavor
the grave does not present more problems
pain, the great illusion, goes away that day
for He is there and ever helpful
always shining in my shame, so i obey...
Losing Sight of Reality
chorus
but then you came along, and life was but a dream
sorrow only came once that day, all day as it seem
a dying flame still dances in my chest
trying its all not to give up and rest
verse.one
when you came in to see me that day, all i did was smile
then as the time pressed on, i realized i was only a child
wanting only what i can not
wishing painful wishes that break all thought
chorus
but then you came along, and life was but a dream
sorrow only came once that day, all day as it seem
a dying flame still dances in my chest
trying its all not to give up and rest
verse.two
loving you more than any other
even father, sisters, brothers, and mother...
before you, life was the almost the same, misery and not
only reversed to where i was happy least and sad a lot
bridge
something tells me inside to keep trying
something else tells me to myself, i’m lying
oh the Lord sings His grand name in you
but sometimes i fear that it’s too good to be true
chorus
but then you came along, and life was but a dream
sorrow only came once that day, all day as it seem
a dying flame still dances in my chest
refusing to rest...
Cold
alone, naked i feel, as if there is no problem
cold, dark i feel, as if You cannot solve them
afraid, lost, no one really with me
lonely, scared, am i really free?
but You came and covered me in a blanket so warm
You took me away from that place to reform
calm like me, i wish it never end
but it can’t, for you my God-send
depressed, no more, i see You there for guidance
Your spirit, inside me, always there to enchant
will You always be there to help me?
even when i fall, will You place me back to see?
“yes,” says a gentle voice from You
“yes, I do...”
The Girl that Stole the Stars
dear God, i have fallen in love with someone
who doesn’t know my name
everytime i look into your eyes
i see a starlit sky, beautiful at its core
everything you say to me
stays inside, making me soar
you make me want to be better than i am
despite how much harder it’ll be
a dancing flame resides in my heart
burning ever so bright, for everyone to see
ever since you’ve entered,
nothing has been the same
i look to God for guidance
but still i’m confused, keeping my shame
i’m afraid to be without you
afraid to be lost
crossing all the rivers in the world
seeking only your trust
i’m afraid to be here
alone
dear God, i have fallen in love with someone
who doesn’t know my name