Wow that was very long and insightful. Unfortunately you have to got to realise there are arseholes in this world that are perfectly ready to treat you like a good cup of tea only to turn on you. I wouldn't take anything to heart. If anything he did you a huge favour. You have come out and realised what you are. This will make you a better person. I say just drop the whole thing and get on with your life. Do not dwell on the past, it will only make you angry and depressed. AJ is either a cunt or a blatant fucking faggot. Get over him, find a girl or a boy and just fuck yourself senseless. You will feel so much better afterwards.