I don't know if this is a poem or a song or just questions. Whichever way, this was very cathartic for me to write.

Daimler

How can you stand to see yourself like this?
How can you stand to do what you don't want to?
How do you cope when you're your own antithesis?
How can you win when you can't get out of bed?

How does spinelessness overcome your resistance?
How does dependency make you a stronger man?
How can you equate alcoholism with breathing?
How can you say suicidal is being yourself?

How do you kill yourself without anyone knowing?
How do your hands pull your own trigger?
How long can spiders plough you into nonexistence?
How long do you think you can keep your silence?

How can I exchange recklessness for temperance?
How can I bury my trespasses?
How can I prevent the death of forgiveness?
How can I even begin?