something i spit up just now
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The best decision I've ever made will make me unhappy
Nonsensicals fingerfuck my synapses
I have to do something
Dragging myself, I claw for support familiar
But loveholds shift to sand and -

and I arch back into a snarling loneliness
All I have is my decision, and I guard it like a wild animal mother
No one can backhand me hard enough
Before I stalk off never to be seen again
Only heard from.