Truth about Mikachu Yukitatsu.

[Mikachu Yukitatsu]

Truth about Mikachu Yukitatsu.

This is my autobiography. The topic title is stolen from firepokemon's "Truth about firepokemon." thread long ago. All the people's names in this story have been changed for privacy. Place names haven't been changed.

I, Mikachu Yukitatsu, was born on the 19th of June 1985. I spent my first year or so in a children's home probably because my mother wasn't able to take care of me. My father, on the other hand, lived somewhere else and was out of question because he, like my mother, had mental illness. If I've understood correctly. My mother got me back anyhow and we started living with my grandmother and my aunt in a small village called Merijärvi. I only saw my father once or twice, as he lived in a bigger city, Oulu. When I was 4, we moved to Merijärvi downtown and when 5, to a town named Kalajoki.

I could read at the age of five, and according to my mother, calculate huge numbers. I also memorized parts of the Bible. Finns used to learn to read mostly from Donald Duck comics, but my mother read me the Bible as well. In Kalajoki I started school in 1991. I was bullied a lot back there, I had lived too isolated, didn't get my mates' jokes and was really easily angered.

At the same time I realized my mother wasn't OK. She had to spend time in mental hospital once in a while and I had to live with my grandmother or in a temporary substitute family.

In 1997, my life changed very much. It was decided that before my puberty starts, I had to be moved to a final substitute family. I didn't like the idea, especially because there were no free places in Kalajoki. I had to go to another town, Haapavesi.

In the new substitute family, I had to learn to wash dishes, clean up, and everything. And I could play computer and NES daily, mostly Super Mario Bros 3. The substitute parents had one children of their own, plus two who were taken care of like me. The two left soon but were replaced in December 1997 by two younger kids, 8-year old boy Lateksi, and Aoiumi, who was a girl of my age.

On the school front, my first year in Haapavesi was a success. In August 1997 I started school there and the first thing my schoolmates noticed was that I was good at drawing. I got lots of friends.

I had started drawing comics already in Kalajoki, my first big series were Kari Kukko (Kari the Cock), Lammen Väki (The Folk Of The Pond) and Belsa Babylonialainen (Belsa the Babylonian). Belsa Babylonialainen was inspired by both the Bible and Mika Waltari's Sinuhe The Egyptian, the latter is a long book I had read when I was 11.

Autumn 1997, we used to borrow friends' Playstation and sometimes Nintendo 64. That's how I got my first touch on Crash Bandicoot and Super Mario 64. In December we got our own Playstation with Crash Bandicoot 2 and V-Rally. I played Crash a lot, though I would have liked Mario more. We got also Final Fantasy VII but I wasn't absorber by it at once.

Spring 1998 when I still was 12 was time for my first love. My target was Aoiumi, who didn't respond to my feelings. She started to hate me, also my substitute parents didn't like it because they wanted us to be just sister and brother. And they talked about "having a crush" all the time, I myself believed I was in love. I thought about Aoiumi the whole summer, even or especially when we were in Sweden and Norway, my first trip abroad.

Autumn 1998 began in Haapaveden Yläaste, a school we Finns usually go to from the age of 13 to 15. I still had friends and they even visited me. The girls in Yläaste made me forget Aoiumi for like 5 years or so.

The first time I played a videogame through was September 1998. Final Fantasy VII. My gaming skills were even worse than today, I used only Summons and so on.

We went to Italy by car summer 1999. I bought lots of pirate games from Poland, among others Final Fantasy VIII in Japanese. That's why I began to study Japanese in the first place. And perhaps it was October, they started showing Pokemon anime in Finland.

I was falling in love with Japan because of videogames and Pokemon anime but it was stopped by reading The Hobbit, reading The Lord Of The Rings, and one girl. I greeted Hateshinai Waraigoe one morning in 2000 with "I love you". She rejected me. I told all my classmates how much I loved Hateshinai and my friends left me when "they noticed what kind of person I really was". My comics, at the same time, got more and more twisted and I worsipped Hateshinai as a goddess.

I was so desperate that I was going to jump out from a window but then I remembered Pokemon would be on TV next Saturday. So the anime kept me alive. I began to tape Pokemon episodes and suitable to my situation, the first episode I taped was Bye Bye Butterfree. I watched it daily from the tape again and again. Also my music therapy began.

When the eight grade was over I was exhausted. However, I heard we were going to Germany to Hannower World Expo. To get to speak Japanese in Japan Pavillion, I started studying big time. In Hannower, I met a Japanese girl who made me "forget the western bitches" for some time. I didn't start writing her or anything but I began to dream only about a Japanse wife and living in Japan.

On the first day of the ninth grade I went to Haapaveden Yläaste with a Pokemon tattoo on my forehead. My former friends never really came back to normal, but I didn't care as I had that Japan obsession. I even wore an oriental costume for some months at school. We in the substitute family got a new computer. And internet, which was down once in a while and we completely abandoned it soon. I got also a Game Boy emulator and got my hands on Pokemon games. My favourite character used to be Misty, she was well the first anime girl I noticed. I watched the episode Princess VS Princess six times during the same day.

In the ending cermony of Yläaste, I was wearing a blue costume that looked a bit like kimono. I got five times 10/10 in my results. Summer Holiday 2001 I was hooked by Tekken 3, where Ling Xiaoyu was and is my favourite character.

Lukio, a school where we go normally from the age of 16 to the age of 18 began. My grades ruled, and I also got to use internet at school every single workday. First I had an e-mail exchange with a Brittish girl. On the 11th of of September, they took the school photographs and I had had my hair cut and was wearing the kimono-styled costume. Later that day, airplanes hit Pentagon and WTC. The girl didn't reply my e-mail anymore, perhaps it was because my reaction to the terrorist acts was strange.

I had known what TPM was before and had used the main site for info, but didn't know what a message board is. I just joined the forums after the terrorist attacks in September and started posting at school. In Finnish lukio, we have a system which gives often lots of "free classes" when there's no class, often in the middle of day. I spent those free classes in our computer class at TPM. Sometimes I walked to the school when the doors were opened in 7 o'clock, a hour before the first lesson, in the morning and left sometimes at 17. I bought a Game Boy Advance, my first very own game console. My grades went a bit down for a while, however.

Spring 2002 I noticed a nice red-haired girl I shall call MaaREIto-sama, who went to the same lukio. My grades got better again the main reason being we helped each other in Physics and Mathematics. Summer holiday was full of the Football World Championship in Japan and South Korea and drawing girls in manga style. Autumn 2002, Sailor Moon anime began in Finland. I began to prefer it to Pokemon for a while and left TPM for some time as well to return January 2003 as a 'Renewed Restauration' like my title said. I had also joined Haapaveden lukio message board. Associated MaaREIto-sama with Sailor Mercury/Mizuno Ami. This time I hid my love quite well.

On the 10th of May 2003 I got arranged the first and the only date in my life. With MaaREIto-sama in Haapavesi library. Summer holiday separated me from her. I got my first mobile phone and found out MaaREIto-sama had a boyfriend. Like with Hateshinai and also Aoiumi, I felt as if I was dying. I played Quake II a lot with Lateksi. I was actually having a crush on Aoiumi as well again, but never told her.

We call the students who have their last year in lukio "abit". My first day as an abi, I told MaaREIto-sama I liked her horribly much. She said I'd surely find someone else and I said I couldn't find anyone else like her. MaaREIto-sama stopped asking me help at school for a while. I completely regained my Pokemon interest at the same time and finally bought my own Playstation 1 as well.

I enjoyed my last year in lukio. Lots of free classes to use at TPM. Finnish Launguage and Literature was my least favourite subject. I had loved the first course because it dealt with grammatical concepts but the other ones were painful with poem analysis and such. So I didn't take the voluntary course which was for preparing for "ylioppilaskirjoitukset". Ylioppilaskirjoitukset are the final exams to become an ylioppilas and you could say the whole lukio is a school where you prepere for them. Also, I took only one voluntary Advanced Mathematics course and didn't take the English preparing course. The latter because I believed using TPM would be enough practice.

I got a C, 7/10, from Finnish Language and Literature, three Ms, 8/10, from Swedish, French and Reaali (technically History and Physics for me) and two Es, 9/10, in English and Mathematics.

When Lukio ended spring 2004, I had to say farewell to MaaREIto-sama, farewell to the substitute family, farewell to TPM, farewell to Haapavesi. I went to Rovaniemi in Northern Finland to army, we have this conscription army here in Finland.

I took the army too seriously and my mental health went down. I began to hear things and have strange thoughts. I thought it was going to be World War 3, believed I'd get a promotion, heard people speaking Japanese and about things such as Pokemon and Super Saiyans. After one month I was moved to a mental hospital, Visala, in a town called Ylivieska. I would have wanted to go to Haapavesi and meet MaaREIto-sama but that was impossible.

I was in Visala from August 2004 to January 2006. I was quite screwed up, one day I thought I was a nurse and watching TV made me hear and imagine things. The doctors and nurses limited my watching Pokemon and playing videogames because they seemed to risk my condition.

In 2005 I learned there's this house called Mielikkitalo here in Ylivieska. It's a place to protect the customers, mostly people with mental problems, from alienation and loneliness. Free internet and the change to return to The PokeMasters! The mental hospital period ended, and I went to this house called Ylivieskan Kuntoutuskoti where we are trained for independent life outside hospital. I love it here, but I still had to quite TPM once again May 2006 because it was causing me sleeping difficulties. January 2007 I returned to TPM. April 2008 I moved to my first very own apartment, it's an apartment supported by Visala and Kuntoutuskoti.

I have begun to feel like home here in Ylivieska, especially in Mielikkitalo. I have bought my own Nintendo DS, Playstation 3 and Nintendo Wii. I have new crushes on girls, and they don't include the feeling of dying. I got rid of that in Visala. And I'm even able to teach Japanese.

Thanks for reading this. Your thoughts? Do I still have my friends, now that you know "what kind of person I really am"?